Well, as you can see, Ive been offline a long while...and couldnt have been happier.  Got a lot done...I have been working fewer hours at work, unloading trucks.  It's mindless work and it's been helping me lose weight.  So far 35 pounds since the end of April.  Ive been concentrating on my artwork more, and have gotten a lot done.  I'm even showing a couple places and doing a lot of in house work for Stella's Diner here in Chicago.  Summer has been generally carefree...well. Mostly.  Been doing a lot of grafitti inspired artwork lately.  I'll post something about Market Days in a bit....

There's gonna be an update in the next couple days now that we are back online  :)

Go Hilary!
Go Clint!
Go Morgan!
Virginia, you were robbed!

The Oscar telecast was booooooooooooooooring!

Last night I did dollar slut night with Kevin at Spin.  It was fun, but not as fun as last time.  Sexy Latin guys everywhere.  Now if I can get some to notice, we'll all be happy...

I have a lot of artwork to do tonight, so this is a short entry. 

Someone call me and make my day.

XXXOOO

      I just got off the phone with my dad.  Last Saturday night (While we were having game night) my sister called to tell me that my uncle had died.  He had cancer, and my dad has been in Missouri since Christmas taking care of him. 
    Well it seems that my cousin Brett, the resident black sheep of the family (Drugs, drinking, theft, bad choices in women, etc.) is getting greedy.  He's lost cars, homes, rental properties, etc. and is now claiming ownership of my uncle's possessions.  What a tool.
   
     On a happier note...I am working on three commissions right now for a few people.
 
      I need to start making money from my art that I can rely on.

      I made the BEST CD last night...I can't stop listening to it.

     I really need to go work out or something.  But tonight I wanna go dancing at Spin...hot sweaty Latin guys.  Couldn't you just DIE?

So, I went to Bear Night at Touche last weekend.  First off, there were some incredibly good looking guys there.  But enough about me and my gang... I went with Andre and his friend Brian, and Tony came later.  It was actually sort of fun, except one thing.  Someone I wish ill was there.  And every time I looked towards the door, he was looking at us.  GOSH!  Frickin IDIOT! (Sorry too much Napoleon Dynamite)
    So we ended up dancing at Jackhammer...there was this GORGEOUS guy there.  He was friends with my friend Mike, and his name is Carlos...but SHIT of course he has a boyfriend.  How typical!  But he was staring like he was interested.  Or maybe just afriad I'd talk to him.  Who knows...?

     I saw Million Dollar Baby on Sunday.  What a fuckin great movie.  I love you Hillary Swank.  First Boys Don't Cry (gorgeous performance) and now this.  HOT!

Ok when it's me being random, time to go...    

Today I dropped off some of my paintings at Brainstorm.  It's a comic book/video store.  The owner saw my work at Stella's Diner and wanted to hang it, so hopefully we'll see what happens! 

I'm feeling so...weird lately.

Tonight is 'bear night' at Touche.  I don't get it...some of the hottest guys, in amongst the stinkiest, hairiest, skankiest guys in Chicago, and I can't even get a hello.  Unless it's from some guy who looks like he just stepped off the bus from Shady Pines.  No thanks.

Last night I dreamt that me and my best friend from elementary school had this really cool old house, and I was hosting a dinner party.  At said party, Amy Sedaris (www.jerriblank.com) was there.  We were talking about the Strangers With Candy movie, and we were apparently good friends.  Everyone was having a great time, laughing, carrying on.  Then we went to some sort of play in an auditorium.  After the show, we were walking outside when thsi family in a Saturn was run over by a monster truck.  They weren't hurt, because the little girl in the backseat was holding a Yankee Candle jar.  I even said "Wow, it's a good thing you had that Yankee Candle!"  Amy and I laughed about that for a long time, then we were eating a burrito at El CHorrito. 

How fucked up am I?

I'm at an internet cafe listening to 'Serious' by Gwen Stefani.  Since I don't have cable at home anymore I hardly ever post, but it's my day off and I wanted to just take a few minutes to remember my mom.  Five years ago (!!!!)  today, January 19, 2000, my mom died.  I can hardly believe that much time has passed.  I can still remember that day like it is still unfolding.  I've pretty much dealt with it, but you can never get over it.

In other stuff...Across the street from em is a mural I did for Stella's Diner (Corner of Broadway and Barry)  I am also showing there.  And he wants me to do more artwork for him!  PLUS I just got a commission for another painting!  PLEASE let this be the beginning.

Check out 'stylewars.com'  GREAT movie, GREAT website.

Gwen rules. 

Peace.

I've been on vacation the last few days and it's led me to realize a few things.  First of all, Buffy is the best show.  Ever.  Second of all, we're all alone.  No one cares about your pain because they are too busy with their own. 
I'm reading 'And the Band Played On' a book about the early days of the AIDS crisi...so sorry for the maudlin.  Pretty engrossing though, but also heartbreaking when you know what was to come.  Plus season 6 of Buffy...pretty grim stuff I guess.

What do you do when someone you thought was lost forever suddenly pops up at you?  And your feelings were never fully gone?  Oh well, who cares, being alone is better for me, I have decided.  That way I can pick up and leave whenever.

Back to work tomorrow...wish me luck

I got my inheritance from my Grandma yesterday.  Almost a thousand dollars.  The only reason I got it was because my brother and sister and I split my mom's portion.  None of the other grandkids got any. SO I am paying off parking tickets and I am also treating myself to a couple toys I didn't think I could afford.  It's like an extra paycheck. 
I talked to Chase today.  I hope I can get to Des Moines this week to see him and Jake.  I talked to my sister today and its cool with her if I stay there.  We'll see.  I am really sluggish today...last night I went to Big Chicks and drank two pitchers of beer, then went to Jackhammer for a bit and then Touche to see if anyone I knew was there.   Of course not.  I was drunk enough though, that I started talking to this cute guy named Matt.  Of course I didn't get his number...sheesh!  Oh well, I have no time to think about such matters.
I don't need a man, do I?  I have Buffy...hahahahaha